Mahaba at mahirap na pagsubok ang pinagdaanan namin ni Jacob until we reached our “forever”.
Heaven knows how hard we fought to save our relationship, madaming naging problema but we managed to breakthrough and get a good ending.
I was 22 and he’s 30 years old when we got married. Jacob is my first guy in “almost everything”.
My first love,
…first sex, and everything related to sex and love.
You know what?
I’m the happiest girl in planet Earth noong araw ng kasal namin.
Why not?
Jacob is the epitome of chivalry and manliness. He got the looks and the charms that makes the ladies go wild and gaga over him,
…at kung bakit ang isang tulad ko ang pinakasalan niya – It’s still one of the biggest mystery unknown to mankind.
When we got married, I thought that I already managed to get a “good ending” a very happy ending!
Tinupad ni Jacob ang lahat ng pangarap ko sa buhay,
…he makes me feel that I’m the only girl in the world, I felt really happy and secured.
I couldn’t ask for more because God already gave me everything thru Jacob. He’s the love of my life.
Because God is good, muli Niya kaming binigyan ng isang regalo, ang baby girl na inaasam namin ni Jacob – We named her Haley
• Three Years Later •
I started to notice something weird,
…simula noong na-promote si Jacob ay nagsimula na siyang magbago.
He rarely bonds with me and Haley, lagi na lang friends niya ang kasama at ka-bonding niya.
“I love you Miel…”
He will always whisper that to me before we go to sleep pero ngayon wala na. Rare na ang I love you
He’s still sweet but the love and care I felt before is gone. Parang plastic ang dating ng sweetness niya.
No… I don’t want to think na may ibang babae siya, I kept on loving him, understanding his hard works for his career and dedication to save money for Haley’s future.
I keep on trusting him even though I feel like there is something wrong,
…something’s not right.
I love him so much.
As time goes by, Jacob’s coldness is getting worst, mas madalas siyang hindi umuuwi ng bahay, hindi halos kami nag-uusap dahil hindi na kami nagkikita… but the worst thing is; hindi na niya kinakamusta si Haley.
I endured everything dahil mahal ko si Jacob, ayaw kong masira ang pamilya namin.
But something happened that makes my patience reach its limit.
Haley’s 7th Birthday. I’ll never forget that day,
…the day I lost my faith in love.
I organized a small party pero hindi dumating si Jacob, sobrang sama ng loob ko kasi it’s our daughter’s important day!
I waited for him, I’ll confront him!
• 1AM •
Jacob arrived, nagulat siya noong makita ako sa sala, nakaupo sa sofa at umiiyak. He released a sigh of disappointment and said:
“Miel naman, ano’ng drama na naman to’?”
I felt really bad, parang kasalanan ko pa kung bakit masama ang loob ko, so I asked him:
“Bakit ngayon ka lang? Bakit hindi ka sumulpot sa birthday ni Haley!?”
Tiningnan niya ako ng masama, natakot ako but I stood firm.
“Pwede ba Miel? Pagod ako.”
After he said his “magical” line ay tinalikuran na niya ako.
I can’t take this situation anymore! I’ll say what I want to say!
“A-aminin mo Jacob…may ibang babae ka diba?”
Humarap ulit siya sa akin, then he smirked. Biglang gumapang ang takot sa buong katawan ko.
Feels like I pressed the wrong button and there’s no turning back now.
No please, stop this, bati na tayo…
I don’t want to hear it.
“Oo meron at may anak na kami! Ano? Masaya ka na!?”
“Matagal na din akong nagtitiis sa inyo eh. Siguro panahon na din para tapusin na natin to’.”
I can’t say anything, it hurts,
…it hurts so much that I just want to die, parang namanhid ang ulo ko noong marinig ko ang mga sinabi ni Jacob,
…kahit matagal ko ng ramdam na mayroon na siyang iba, hearing it directly from him creates an immense pain in my chest.
I just want to hear it, those magical words. Sabihin lang niyang mahal niya kami ni Haley and everything will be okay.
“J-Jacob, kami pa din ni Haley ang mahal mo diba? Please, just tell me the truth…”
I’m expecting na sasabihin niya na mahal niya kami – ang tunay niyang pamilya, na natukso lang siya,
“Sorry Miel, the feeling is gone. Sila ang mahal ko.”
Upon hearing those words, my heart and soul started to break down into millions of pieces.
Umalis si Jacob at iniwan kami ni Haley, I pleaded for him to stay, lumuhod ako at halos kumapit sa mga paa niya huwag lang niya kaming iwanan.
God knows how hard I tried to stop him, how I cried and begged him to stay,
…but Jacob still abandoned us.
Ilang araw, ilang linggo, ilang buwan.
Walang araw na hindi ko siya hinintay, lagi akong umaasa na babalik siya sa akin, sa amin ni Haley.
Lagi akong umaasa na sana mabuo muli ang pamilya namin.
Isang araw, namalayan ko na lang ang malakas na sampal ng realidad!
Wala na akong pera.
Ang daming dapat bayaran, ang daming dapat bilhin, magbabayad pa sa tuituion ni Haley! Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko!
I kept myself busy thinking of ways on how to survive this situation, but depression and melancholy is stopping my advance.
But…
Everything changed when my crying daughter approached me.
“Mommy gutom na po ako, kain na po tayo, masakit na ang tyan ko.”
Kinuha ko ang wallet at doon ay nakita ko na wala na kaming pambili kahit pandesal at instant noodles.
Awang-awa ako sa anak ko.
Dahil kay Haley, dahil sa mga luha niya ay nakawala ako sa depression, my head is clear and I already know what to do.
First:
Intergalactic Fuck You Jacob!
We don’t need you! Walang Forever! Fuck happy endings!
Second:
Humingi ako ng tulong sa parents ko and then I used my diploma to find a job! We have to survive, my daughter needs me.
Lucky me…
A marketing firm hired me and to prove myself and show my gratitude ay ginawa ko ang best ko! I gave my everything sa work at kay Haley.
• Seven Years Later •
Time flies so fast, madami na ang nangyari at madami na ang nagbago.
Now I can proudly say that I become successful in climbing the corporate ladder. Dati staff lang ako, ngayon I’m one of the managers, financially stable and empowered.
Dati luhaan akong iniwan ni Jacob, my fucking eggless EXhubby, ngayon I don’t him anymore.
Kasabay ng career ay inalagaan ko din ang sarili ko. Gym, diet and good vibes ang naging secret ko. I’m 36 years old now but I look way more beautiful compared to “me” 10 years ago.
Haay…ang kulang na lang sa akin ay love life, yeah you read it right.
I miss the feeling of being loved and pampered. For Dildo’s sake! Seven years na akong tigang sa lalake!
SEVEN YEARS!!!
Ayaw ko namang makipag FUBU lang, yuck! I have my morals intact, dalagang Filipina yata si Miel!
Heehee…
Ang haba ng throwback ko habang nakatulala ako sa ulap. Today is Haley’s birthday and those terrible memories are haunting me again.
Ang dami-dami ko pang gustong i-daydream but a call from one of my staff forced me to stop.
“Ma’am, we received a request that the CEO wants to meet you. Now.”
Agad akong nagpunta sa office ni Mr. CEO, narinig ko lang before na may bago kaming boss but I don’t have any idea who is it,
…maybe a new old dog who wants to abuse beautiful employees.
At ano ang kailangan niya sa akin!?
Pagdating sa room ni Mr. CEO ay kumatok ako bilang pasintabi then I opened the ornamented wooden door.
The CEO’s room is well-lit and spacious, may mga paintings na nakasabit sa pader, the floor is adorned by beautifully designed carpet.
I confidently walked towards the table where the boss of all the boss is waiting. I don’t feel any pressure at all dahil maganda ang job performance ko.
Nakatalikod ang silya ni Mr. CEO ayaw pang humarap agad ni loko.
When I got near his table, finally humarap na siya sa akin and I’m very surprised to see him.
A young looking guy in 20’s, with extremely good looks, expressive eyes and serious facial expression. His black suit and tie makes him look more authoritarian.
Parang mataray ang aura but he’s so gwapo, my heart is beating so fast by just looking at him.
“Ms. Miel Gonzalez…”
Oh gosh! He called my name, and he’s looking at me, he’s staring at me! What to do, what to say.
“Ah…yes, Sir?”
He smiled at me, parang nagbukas ang pinto ng langit when he flashed those killer smile. My knees started to tremble from excitement or,
…kilig!? Aaah hell no! Lola na ako para sa kilig kilig thingy na yan!
Fuck this brat! Making me nervous like this. Calm the fuck down Miel.
“I’m Xander Holmes, I’ve always wanted to meet you Miel.”
He always wanted to meet me!? Stalker ko ba siya? Ganun ba ako kaganda?
Xander offered his hand, as a sign of respect I shake hands with him.
Touching his right hand, gives me a weird feeling that fills up my entire body. Para akong kinukuryente na ewan! Waaah! What’s happening to me!? Paki explain!
Xander stood up, parang ang laki niya at ang bigat ng presence niya. I’m having a hard time breathing because of the immense pressure he gives off.
Lumapit siya sa akin and then he begin to kiss my forehead.
Huh? Lola lang!?
After that he whispered;
“I’m dying to meet you and I wont let this chance slip.”
In a blink of an eye, he conquered my lips, I don’t know what to do but my body reacted on its own.
I kissed him back, we exchanged kisses and breath each other.
“Dalagang Filipina!”
My mind is screaming for morality, but my body is saying;
“The time is now! – Tigang no more!”
While our tongue is busy in playing with each other, ipinasok ni Xander ang kamay niya sa blouse ko and then he started to fondle my breast.
His warm hand is electrifying my nerves and senses, I’m starting to lose myself, I want this, I want him.
He moves his lips down to my neck and started to kiss that part, it’s my weakness kaya nangalog ang tuhod ko sa bawat dampi ng labi niya sa leeg ko.
“Sir… that feels good.”
Nagulat ako sa salitang lumabas sa bibig ko. No! No!
This brat is making me damn horny! I’m getting so excited…
He stopped, nagulat ako, nabitin.
Why?