ni Reawaken
Prologue
Have you ever wanted and loved someone so much that you are willing to do something you’ve never done before just to feel them near you, in any way possible?
I have.
Could you take the risk of being hated forever just to have him all for yourself for one night?
I could.
Would you kidnap the person you’re in love with for the sake of your own pleasure?
I would..because that’s the only way I know how to be close to him.
It’s the only way…
It’s a crime I’m willing to commit. You might call me obssessive or crazy or pathetic but I have to show him I love him even if it’s just for tonight.
So let me get away with it.
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Chapter 1
Friday night. Araw ng gimmick mo.
Hindi ko alam kung anong kakahinatnan ng gagawin ko ngayong gabi. If I succeed, lucky me. If not, kakamuhian mo ako, I’m sure. Paano kung mangyari ang kinakatakutan ko? Kakayanin ko bang ipagtabuyan mo ako sa buhay mo?
It’s too late to turn back now.
Pinanood kitang sumasayaw kasama ng dalawang babaeng…binayaran ko para libangin slash lasingin ka. Malakas kasi ang control mo kapag barkada ang kasama mo e. Oo nga pala, friend mo lang ako.
Anong magagawa ko, hindi din naman kasi ako ang tipo mo. Malamang hindi. Kasi kung oo, edi sana, matagal ko nang sinabi sa’yong mahal kita. Hindi na sana ako magkakandahirap na planuhin ang lahat ng ‘to para lang maging akin ka ng isang gabi.
Balik tayo sa kalagayan mo ngayon. May tama ka na. Halata sa kilos mo. I wonder if you’re really enjoying their company. Pabayaan na lang kaya kita sa kanila? Maybe you would give me a pat on the head if I did that? Wait, this night isn’t about you. It’s about me owning you.
Nakita kong sumenyas na ang isang babaeng kasayaw mo. That means, NG ka na. No good. You’re wasted. Inalalayan ka ng dalawang babae palabas ng bar. Kasabay ng pagsunod ko sa kanila ay ang pagtali ko ng buhok ko at pagsuot ng dark pink hoodie sa katawan ko.
Sumusunod lang ako sa inyong tatlo habang pinapasok ka ng dalawa sa passenger seat ng kotse ko.
“Just like what you’ve wanted..” maarteng tono ng morenang babaeng hindi ko na inalam ang pangalan.
“Thanks,” I smiled. Inabot ko ang sobre na may 5k sa loob.
Bago pumasok sa loob ng kotse ay tinaas ko ang hood ng hoodie as ulo ko at sinuot ang shades ko. The last thing I want you to know is my real identity.
Nagising ka sa pagsara ko ng pinto ng kotse.
“Hmm, sorry, uh, nasaan kasama ko?” tanong mo sa akin pero hindi kita sinagot.
Inayos ko ang seatbelt mo pero hinawakan mo ako.
“Ihahatid ko pa pala si..” binanggit mo ang pangalan ko. Nagdulot ito ng kiliti sa tyan ko. Kahit papaano ay natuwa ako dahil naalala mo na kasama mo akong pumunta sa bar na ‘to. At least I know that you care for me. Yung nga lang, as a friend.
Napaka gentleman mo talaga kahit kailan. If I didn’t purposely made you drink as hell tonight, I know you’d really drive me home. Kaya kita minahal — marunong kang rumespeto ng mga babae. Chivalry won’t be dead as long as I’m with you.
Hey, wake up. Ibang tao ka ngayon, remember? Pinaalala ng sarili ko sa akin.
Oo nga pala. Hindi ako yung dalagang pilipinang kasama mong pumunta sa bar ngayong gabi, ako muna yung babaeng matagal ka nang gusto… ako muna yung babaeng hindi mo kilala..at hindi mo makikilala.
“Umalis na siya.” Inalis ko ang kamay mo na nakakapit sa braso ko at tuluyang naayos ang seatbealt mo.
“A-ano?”
Hindi ko alam kung naintindihan mo ba yung sinabi ko o hindi na. Bigla ka na lang kasing nakatulog. I want to touch your face…your cheeks…your lips right now but I didn’t. You’re so cute. Para ka lang batang napagod kakalaro at biglang nakatulog.
Sana kasi, ako na lang.
Hindi ko alam kung anong nararamdaman ko habang mahigpit ang pagkakahawak ng kamay ko sa steering wheel. I’ve wanted my Mr. right to be you. Bakit kasi hanggang barkada lang tayo?
Pinaandar ko ang kotse.
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It’s been 5 hours since we arrived at this appartel.
You’re still peacefully lying down on the bed, half-naked, with a blindfold on while I’m on the couch watching you. Tuod ka pa rin matulog. You don’t move that much when you sleep. If I haven’t known you for a long time, I might think you’re dead now.
What if I remove that blindfold and just join you in that bed? What if I should start thinking positive? Maybe..it would be okay for you if you find out we spent the night together? Paano kung okay lang pala sa’yo na paggising mo, ako ang nakita mong katabi mo sa kama? Paano..paano..
Ugh.. no. I’ve thought about this a million times before. There is no way he wouldn’t freak out if he saw me — his one of his closest barkada lying naked beside him.
Tumayo na ako at sumampa sa kama. Inangat ko ang kaliwang kamay mo at nilagay ang posas. Ganun din ang ginawa ko sa kanan mo. You might wake up any moment now so..
“Hmmm,”
Nagising ka ata sa ginawa ko. Naka-indian sit ako sa right side mo.
Dugdugdug.
Alam mo bang nagwawala na ang puso ko ngayon? Kasi alam kong wala ng atrasan ‘tong gagawin ko.
“Uh sht.” hahawakan mo sana ang ulo mo kaso narealize mong hindi mo kaya. “What the??”
This is the hard part for both of us. You — scared. Me — not wanting to see you frightened and helpess because of what I’m doing.
“N-nasaan ako??” ginalaw mo uli ang dalawang kamay mo pero tinigil mo din. You now realized you’re stuck. “HEY!” ginalaw mo yung hita kaya nasagi ang hita ko.
“Tang-ina,” you whisphered. “Magsalita ka!”
Galit na galit ang tono ng boses mo. I wonder if you’d react this way too kapag nalaman mong ako ang gumawa nito sa’yo.
Huminga ako nang malalim at sumampa sa ibabaw mo.
“What the hell!”
I held your face.
“Sshh,” I whispered and kissed your nose..then your cheeks.
‘HEY! Who are you–”
You keep on talking and I keep on looking at your lips. Matagal na kitang gustong halikan — not in a wild way ha.
I’m sorry, I thought
then kissed your lips. Dahan-dahan at mabilis lang. Nagwawala na ang puso ko. I just kissed you! I’m sorry. This is so wrong but it felt so right for me.
“Did you.. hinalikan mo ako?!” you shouted. “Sino ka ba?!”
I wanted to tell you that I’m not going to hurt you but I couldn’t speak. You might recognize my voice. I took a deep breath and kissed you once again, this time a little longer. I sucked your lower lip, I could still taste the beer but it’s okay — it’s you.
Hindi ko alam ang nangyari pero you’re kissing me back so I stopped. Parehas tayong hinihingal. Hindi ka na nagsasalita ngayon.
Dapat ba akong matuwa? o dapat akong malungkot? Both? Yeah, I know what it feels like to be kissed by you but who are you thinking of right now? Definitely, not me.
C’mon. It’s not about what he’s thinking, it’s about you. I reminded myself once again.
Hinalikan kita uli at sinabayan mo naman ako.
“Hmm,” you whispered in between our kisses. “Why?”
Bakit? I just want be with you tonight..just for tonight. Gusto kong sa akin ka lang naka focus kahit na isang gabi lang.
Soon enough, our kiss became torrid and our tongue started to meet in your mouth. You’re..a great kisser. I didn’t know you could kiss this way — hot and hungry. I’ve known another part of you and it made me like you more.
I kissed your jawline and you moaned. Hm. Ang sexy ng moan mo. super. I nibbled your left earlobe but you suddenly kissed and sucked my neck and that took me by surprise! Napa-ungol ako, kailangan kong takpan ang bibig ko.
I heard your laugh.
“Masarap?” and then I saw you smirking.
I have a feeling you’re still drunk and maybe this doesn’t feel real to you.
“Bakit hindi ka nagsasalita?” seryoso na uli ang aura sa paligid nating dalawa. “Wag mong sabihing bading ka…?” sobrang worried yung tono ng boses mo.
Gusto ko nang tumawa ngayon pero alam kong hidni dapat. Alam kong lapitin ka ng mga bading. Alam ko ding nirerespeto mo sila pero hindi ka pumapatol. Alam kong nag-aalala ka talaga ngayon. Dapat hindi ako ako pwedeng magsalita pero..
“I’m not,” mabilis ang pagkakasabi ko sa tenga mo sabay balik uli sa paghalik ko sa’yo.
Mukhang wala namang problema dahil naging hot at sexy na uli ang pakiramdam ko. At ramdam kong ganun ka din. Umalis ako sa ibabaw mo at kinapa ang ibabaw ng boxers mo. You’re already rock hard..dahil sa kisses o dahil sa situation mo ngayon? I wish I could ask.
Lumipat ang kamay ko sa puson mo at unti-unti kong nilalapit sa loob ng boxers mo. I’m watching you while doing it. I saw you licked your lower lip — you do that when you’re excited or anxious.
And then, sa wakas, nahawakan ko na din ang alaga mo… I never thought I would have the chance to hold it or even see it. Don’t get me wrong. Yes, I’ve brought you here for se.x but this is not the only thing that I want from you. Hindi naman sa pagnanasa nabuo ang crush, affection, love ko sa’yo. It was the other way around, I guess. I fell for you and these wild thoughts came after the realization.
Ibinaba ko na ang boxers mo at bumungad sa akin ang nakatayo mong…
May basa na sa ulo nito. So yeah, you’re really enjoying this. Good. I started to play with your manhood — taas baba. Hinigpitan ko pa ang pagkakahawak.
“Oh sht. Tanggalin mo na blindfold ko,” it’s a mix of command and plead.
A part of me wants to do as you said but sorry. Hindi pwede e.
I want to taste you too so I licked the head. Hmm. Not bad. Inulit-ulit ko yun until I heard you moan. Tiningnan muna kita. You’re looking down at me as if you’re seeing me. I know can’t but I hope you do.
Pinagpatuloy ko ang ginagawa ko. This time, I tried to put all of you in but I didn’t succeed on the first try. Doesn’t matter. Inulit-ulit ko until I can feel the head of your manhood at my throat.
“Hmmm.” Umungol ka uli and you thrust your hip upwards. I almost choke but I managed not to. Niluwa kita. Pero sinumulan kong dilaan ang kahabaan mo simula baba hanggang sa tip. And each time I reach the head, I suck it while my left hand grip your shaft.
“Sht.sht.sht..” you moaned again and again. I can see your hands balled into fist. Grabe. Ang hot mo tingnan habang nakalip bite ka. Not the girly way. Sobrang manly. Oh damn. I wanna kiss your lips right now. But something else needs my attention — the little you down here.
And so… sinubukan ko uling isubo ka nang buo. This time, medyo nasasanay na ako.
“Fck! So close babe.” you’re running out of breath. “Ahh..”
Naramdaman ko ang pagtense ng katawan mo. You’re so close to cmming? Ni-ready ko ang sarili ko for your release because I–
Then naramdaman ko yung pagtalsik ng something sa loob ng bibig ko. I swallowed it all in one gulp because honestly, I don’t like the idea of tasting c.um. Pero, this is just a one time opportunity, so might as well try it with you.
“Tangina..” hinihingal ka. Napadausdos ka na nang husto sa kama. “You..nilunok mo…” Based on your tone, you are amused and turned on.
“First time for me na y’know.. swallow.” inamin mo.
My first time too. I want to say but.. nevermind. Tumayo ako at iniwan muna kita sa kama. Tinanong mo ako kung saan ako pupunta pero hindi kita sinagot ko. Dumeretso ako sa banyo para magtoothbrush. Not because I disgust your taste on my mouth but because we actually had this convo before. It was with our barkada.
What if the girl swallowed your s, would you kiss right after? You answered, it depends on who’s the girl.
But tonight, I don’t want rejections.
Bumalik ako sa kama. Sa tingin ko hindi ka na ata gaanong lasing dahil matalas na uli ang pakiramdam mo. When I got out of the bathroom, napatingin ka sa direksyon ko.
“Hindi mo ba tatanggalin yung posas?” tanong mo habang ginagalaw ang mga kamay. “Gusto din kitang hawakan.”
Tempting offer. But once I released your hands, for sure, tatanggalin mo din yang blindfold mo.
Tumabi uli ako sa gilid mo and kissed you, I sucked your lips kaagad and you sucked mine too. We’re both so ho.rny right now. I’m so wet. I’ve started to touch my self while kissing you. Napaisip ako kung dapat ko bang tanggalin yung posas mo.
Yung isa lang siguro.
Damn it. I really want to feel your hands on me. And I want you to feel kung gaano ako kaexcited ngayon. Tumayo ako at kinuha ko ang susi. I released your right hand and guided it towards my breasts. Kaagad mo namang nilamas yung left boob ko.
“Hindi ka magsisisi.” you smirked. “Don’t worry about the blindfold. Hindi ko muna tatanggalin. Unahan na lang tayo?”
I bit my lip as he sucked my other nipple and slighty pinched the other. Hmm. He’s playful and green right now.
to be continued…