Di makatulog so sulat muna ng estorya.
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This happened during my college days. My name is Dex and I am a third year Mass Comm student here sa State University namin. Let me get this out of the way, this story will involve a lot of man to man action, and some m-w-m… but mostly m-m.
Now, I’m not really into guys, nor did I seek guys after this phase of my life. The only reason kung bakit ako nag karoon ng karanasan ng ganito e dahil nagkadevelopan kami ng partner ko at that time. And yes, being a homosexual story, the other person is a man.
Before I start any further, let me paint you a picture so you can envision how we look. We were burly-ish straight men back then. Roy, the other man, is a good friend of mine, and my housemate. He’s also a third year student attending the same university, and he’s taking up Psychology. In terms of looks, looking back, kamukha nya yung chubby guy dun sa Kung Di Rin Lang Ikaw music video ng December Avenue. Very outgoing sya, jolly personality, and makulit. In terms of sexuality, I know he’s straight. I’ve caught him several times jacking off to w-w, and alam kong ilang beses na syang na busted ng mga classmates nya. Very likable sya, pero a lot of girls na niligawan nya e mas gusto lang sya as a close friend and not really a boyfriend… not that he’s not boyfriend material. Being a chubby guy, he didn’t really had any problems with his looks, alam nya at alam nung mga nililigawan nya na pogi sya in his own way, pero wala lang talaga syang matsempohan na would consider him Mr. Right.
Me, also straight back then, but I was more like…I was straight only because hindi pa ako nakaka-experience ng lalaki. I wasn’t physically attracted sa mga guys, but I knew that if ever na libog ako at me nag alok sa’kin na lalaki na I would consider doable, then yeah sure I’d go for it. A little complicated. Almost all of my experiences were instigated by the girls I had sex with, never me. I was always the guy na me looks, pero achievable ng mga average to above average na girls. Merong kaseng gwapo na lalaki na alam mong hindi mo basta basta makukuha kahit na ibuyang yang mo yang keps mo sa kanya. Hindi naman sa mababa standards ko, lahat nung mga girls na nakasama ko e magaganda, and being college students din, are very well educated syempre. Physical looks, I’m more manlier looking than Roy. He’s more boy next door type na chubby, I’m more of a maton type of guy. Semi-kalbo, we short mustache and chin-beard… muscular din ako because of family business reasons and dahil nagli-lift din ako ng wieghts, a little bit of body hair. Nothing serious of a physique, pero you can tell there’s muscle underneath the layer of fat. Roy’s fat was a little bit on the softer side, mine was on the harder side.
Personality-wise, I’m more reserved. Loko din ako, pero most of the time nakikibagay ako sa situation. If loko kasama ko, then sasakay din ako sa mga trip nila, pero in a more reserved way. I give off that kuya-vibe sa grupo, yung alam mong makakasama mo sa kalokohan, pero alam mong sya yung lalapitan mo pag need mo ng masasandalan.
Anyway, I wanna start off when it all started.
Like I said earlier, I’ve caught him several times jacking off. Yung appartment namin e studio type so it’s a pretty open space. We basically have our beds at each side of the room, and kahit anong gawin mong tago, kita namin ang isa’t isa. And since tahimik akong tao generally, almost all the time nagugulat sya na me kasama na pala sya sa loob. The first couple of times medyo awkward for him, pero I assured him naman na wala sa akin if he jacks off. I can still remember na sobrang pulang pula nya nung nahuli ko sya for the 2nd time, completely naked sa kama nya, tapos ginulat ko sya. Hindi sya kase nag-he-headphones tuwing nanonood sya ng porn, so rinig ko tuwing dadating ako if he’s at it. That one time, me kasama pang ungol nya yung narinig ko pagpasok, e yung appartment namin e yung banyo e nasa pag pasok lang, so merong corridor after nung door, so hindi mo talaga makikita pag me pumasok. Nung alam kong nag jajakol talaga sya, habang umuungol, tumalon ako tapos sigaw ng “huli ka balbon!” Sabay tawa habang sya nagpapanic mag taklob ng sarili nya. That was the first time I really saw his penis, the first time na nahuli ko sya, nakatago sya sa kumot, this time he was naked. Mataba, red yung ulo, probably around 5-6 inches, maputi.
“Yowts, tangina to. Kumatok ka naman.” Pulang pula sya habang nag tatalukbong ng kumot nya. Ako naman e tawang tawa.
Sabi ko sa kanya then, “sa banyo mo na kase yan gawin para di ka maistorbo. hahaha Tengene ka, pano kung me kasama ako ahahaha!”
Tapos, I went blunt on him, “malapit ka na ba? Kukunin ko lang wallet ko, tapos bibili akong merienda, tapusin mo na yan bago ako bumalik.” Then he look at me na parang merong “thank you” sa mukha nya. Tapos habang kinukuha ko yung wallet ko sa bedside table ko narinig ko yung ungol mula sa pinapanood nya. Sinabi ko sa kanya, “hintayin mo naman ako umalis,” tapos sumagot sya, “e baka lumambot. Bilisan mo na kase dyan.”
From then on, medyo naging mas open na sya with himself. Mas nag susuot na sya ng boxers shorts na alam kong walang briefs underneath. He also isn’t wearing shirts anymore if kami lang dalawa sa appartment. And the only time he puts on more clothes is pag meron kaming classmates na bisita working on school stuff.
The first real encounter namin sa isa’t isa physically was during a couple of days after out final exam of the first semister. Since tapos na yung exams, nag kayayaan yung mga classmate friends ko na mag inom, which means sa place namin yung inuman kase sa’min lang naman meron spacious na lugar that can accomodate 10-ish people. Roy doesn’t mind this kase unang una magaganda classmates ko, and since kuya type ako, walang malisya yung mga girls na classmates ko sa’kin. Also, kasama din si Roy sa inuman of course, and more times na mas nalalasing si Roy kesa sa’kin….well, never pa talaga ako nalasin sa inuman naming magka-classmates kase hindi naman ako palainum. Casual lite drinker lang ako., whereas Roy really drinks.
In this particual driking session, medyo mas naparami ang inom ng lahat. There were only three of us who were functioning after nung inuman. My other two classmates helped our other classmates na maka-balik sa kanikanilang mga boarding house and dorms….it was a round 1-ish nung natapos yung inuman. Being the host, obviously ako yung taga-ligpit, and Roy being out of commision, I was understandbly okay with it. Ako naman kase nag dala nung inuman sa appartment namin, and lahat nung tao e from my side.
Nung natapos ko nang mag ligpit, I noticed Roy getting up from our couch and headed towards the bathroom. Syempre nakabantay ako, maya maya matumba yun at mabagok ang ulo, konsensya ko pa.
I talked to him, “oy, bukas ang mata. Baka mag kalat ka dyan.” Then he replied, ” gago, gising ako. hahaha” Tapos I saw him fumbling dun sa door handle. Naka-apat na try syang buksan yung pinto bago ako lumapit at binuksan yun para sa kanya. Pag pasok nya, binaba nya yung buong short nya tapos pati yung boxer brief nya then umihi sya. I went back to the couch and sat there to get some peace of mind. Then I felt him sat down next to me. Naramdaman ko pinatong nya yung ulo nya sa lap ko, pag tingin ko sa kanya, naka boxer brief lang sya, wala na yung short and shirt nya. I didn’t mind it naman.
“Ano? Tagay pa.” Sabi ko sa kanya. Ungol lang sinagot nya sa’kin.. Since sympathetic naman ako sa kanya since lasing sya, I placed my hands sa hair nya and started combing it. Then mas lalo pa nya pinuwesto ulo nya sa hita ko, tapos nag fetal position sya. He looked like a giant baby.
Sinabi ko sa kanya, “Roy, higa ka na sa kama mo.” Again, ungol lang sinagot nya sa’kin. Medyo inaantok na ako so binuhat ko ulo nya para makatayo ako, tapos kinuha ko unan nya tapos nilagay sa ilalim ng ulo nya. I went to the bathroom to wash my face and to toothbrush, tapos I killed all the lights and went straight to my bed.
Siguro around after 30 minutes I felt na gumalaw kama ko. I know it was Roy since I felt his skill come into contact to mine. Napa-sigh lang ako. “Roy, Roy, Roy….” Then ungol ulit. Nakayakap na sya sa’kin. Again, I’m very symphatetic with him being drunk, I don’t really mind it to be honest. Pero I do really want to sleep na. Then I felt him ease in sa tabi ko, Yung ulo nya ini-unan yung kanan kong braso, yung kanan nyang leg naka patong across my thighs, tapos naka yakap sya sa’kin. He was spooning me. Napa-buntong hininga ulit ako. I knew for a fact na it was going to be a heavy dragging if hinila ko si Roy back to his bed, so I compromised na lang and embrace the situation, the situation being Roy, and literally embracing him more para makapwesto ako to my comfort. By doing so, yung ulo nya mas closer sa right shoulder/chest area, he was on his side na, and he was ligetimately hugging me na. I thought to myself, this is definitely going to be a story when we wake up. One thing I did notice tho, he smelled nice. His hair did had a hint of sweat to it, but overall, he smelled nice. So, I had my face burried sa kanyang buhok, nuzzling it a bit. To me naman at that time, it was still a no-homo situation for me, and I would think Roy would also consider it a no-homo. And to be honest, at that moment, I was so tired, I wouldn’t even care if it was.
Some time later, I Roy woke me up. Akala ko tanghaling tapat na, when I opened my eyes, madilim pa bintana. “Dex, Dex….” Sabi ni Roy,
Sumagot ako, “Ano?”
“Ba’t nadito ako?” At that point, naka same position pa din kami.
“Ewan ko sa’yo. Ikaw ‘tong tumabi sa’kin. Hindi naman kita hihilahin sa kama mo, pagod na ako tapos taba taba mo pa.” ‘
“Gago.” Pagkaimik nya, niyakap ko sya ng mahigpit. Yung parang pag nag stretching ka hanbang nasa kama, pero yung pa-hard embrace na type ng stretch. Syempre lalong lumapit katawan nya sa’kin. Tapos sya naman hinigpitan din yung pag kakayakap sa’kin. And since ganun pa din naman position namin, yung mukha nasa ulo pa din ni Roy.
“Ang lambot mo e.” Sabi ko sa kanya. “Para kang isang malaking suso. hahaha”
“Tangina mo. Suso ba gang,” Sabay dakma sa kanan nyang dibdib sabay lamas.
“Yun o.” Sabi ko, na pamanyakis na tono.
“Gago wag. Malakas kiliti ko dyan.” Tapos medyo nilalayo nya yung kamay ko sa dibdib nya. Ako naman, tawa lang ng tawa. Nag adjust kami ng pwesto, pinihit ko sya para humarap sya papalayo sa’kin, tapos ako naman ang nag spoon sa kanya, sabay yakap ng mahigpit.
“Yowts, bakla.” Pabiro nyang sabi.
“Gago, sinong bakla? Halikan kita dyan e.” Pabiro ko ding sagot. Sabay dakma ulit sa isa nyang dibdib at yakap ng mahigpit. Yung mga binti namin e mag kakasandwich, and patuloy yung pag kuskos sa isa’t isa. Huminga ako ng malalim, yung mukha ko e nasa likuran ng ulo na nya, so rinig na rinig nya yung pag pasok ng hangin sa ilong ko. At the same time, amoy na amoy ko pa din yung buhok nya.
“In love ka na yata sa’kin e. hahaha.” Sabi nya sa’kin.
“Oo naman. I love you na kaya. hahaha” Sagot ko sa kanya. “Matulog ka na ulit, para makatulog na din ulit ako.”
“Dito na?” Tanong nya.
Hindi ako sumagot, Pero pinulupot ko yung dalawang kong arm sa dibdib at tiyan nya sabay yakap ng mahigpit. Hindi na sya umimik.
Itutuloy.