by: stellargirl
Chapter V
Every second feels like an hour waiting after sending him my room number…. I feel both excited and unsure at the same time. Unsure because I’ve been a perfect straight arrow my entire life and I have never done such things to make my life complicated. A couple of minutes later the excitement subsides then sising sisi ako sa decision ko. I kept asking myself “What are you doing J… this is stupid…” while slapping the bed out of frustration.
I got up and went to the toilet to freshen up a little bit. Suddenly I heard my phone ringing and it was Dan. Hindi ko sya nasagot kaagad kasi nga nasa toilet ako. A few seconds later nagsend sya ng SMS. Apparently, he cant use the elevator/lift without the door key card so he’s asking me na sunduin ko nalang daw sya sa looby. Shit! I just realize na I still have an out papala to this situation. I can pretend na I didn’t get his message or I was sleeping na while waiting for him or something, etc all those crappy excusethat I can think of.
I was in bed staring at my phone for a few minutes. He’s calling me again pero hindi ko sinasagot. Mejo natauhan na ako. I’m not 100% decided with this so I can’t let this happen. Paasa na kung paasa. I put my phone in mute and hid it under my pillow like a person hiding away from a boss’s phone call and pretending to be ill. I know I was being a jerk… and there are no excuse for my actions.
I decided to take a long bath nalang in preparation to sleep. After around 20-30 minutes I decided to check my phone. All missed calls pero walang message. Sabi ko sa sarili ko “Umalis na sya siguro…buti naman…”
I checked my inbox again and maybe he sent a message na hindi nag appear sa notifications. Still no messages. I was lying in bed and trying to think what could’ve happened. I feel bad sa nagawa ko. I wanted to text him and tell him na kunwari na late ko nareceive mga message nya and say that I’m sorry or maybe next time nalang. I messed up. I was asking myself “bakit ba ako urong sulong?…..”.
Is it because of friend sya ni Christian? The hell with that guy, I wanted him to know na naka move-on na din ako, na I’m enjoying life at maraming nagkakagusto sa akin.
Is it because of my morals and principles? I’m no longer a teenager who can’t decide on my own… I’m a grown-up, I’m single and with a kick-ass career. It’s not like I’m whoring myself to any guy I meet. I promised myself I won’t chase for the thrills, but if there’s a perfect opportunity and it’s right in front of me, sure. Maybe. Why not.
Is this a perfect opportunity? Well, I’m in a hotel room all by myself. I’m pretty sure I won’t be coming back here in SG anymore. I won’t probably be seeing Christian or Dan again. I can leave all of them behind na parang walang nangyari. Hmm interesting…
Is it because of his looks? Yeah, maybe that’s it. I always envisioned myself na if ever I decided to hook-up for casual sex, it’s going to be with a suave looking athletic type of guy. A guy who’s yummy and with a killer sex appeal. Ika nga If you gotta do wrong, do it right diba. Why would I settle for less?
Despite his looks, Dan has this confidence in him that is winning on me. Other than Christian, wala pang guy na may lakas ng loob na kausapin ako about sex let alone sabihin sa akin directly what he wanted to do with me sexually. Is that really enough to score a girl like me?
Pero ano ba, I’m overthinking it way too much. it’s just a hook-up and it is not like I’m going to marry and spend the rest of my life with this guy. I’m still young and entering my prime. I have all the time I need to find the right guy to spend my future with.
But for a hookup, do I really need to be picky in terms of looks? Well, it’s not like I’m going to parade him as a guy I hooked up with. Wala namang feature sa FB na magaappear sa wall na “J hooked-up with Dan” and all my friends are free to judge…. whatever.
Well there’s a good chance na ipagmamayabang ako ni Dan sa mga friends nya including Christian. Guys do that. On the other hand, Christian didn’t tell his friends or Dan na ex-girlfriend nya ako So, it’s fair to say na any of them are allowed to ask me out without breaking some kind of Bro Code (yup I’m also a big HIMYM fan). Imagine the chaos it would be if Christian finds out na I allowed Dan to score me. Hmmm, let me rephrase that. Imagine the look on Christian’s face if he finds out na I allowed Dan to fuck the hell out of me.
I have an imaginative mind when I’m feeling hot and turned on. Bad ideas turned into good ones. When I was younger I used to block any dirty thoughts na pumapasok sa utak ko. Ayoko ng temptations e. But I learned to loosen up a little bit and let go of my inhibitions once in a while. Besides, nobody can judge you for your dirty thoughts as long as you just keep it to yourself.
Along the way, I discovered that exhibitionism turned me on a little. Not sobra pero tama lang and it’s not about the thrills of doing it in a public place or the excitement of getting caught. For me, It’s more of getting caught and seeing their reactions na I am capable pala to do the things na sa tingin nila na I’m not capable to do. The shock factor. Not sure if exhibitionism sya pero a set of eyes seeing me in a different way, well it turns me on a little.
Habang nagmumuni muni, a message from Dan pops up to my phone screen. Sabi nya “Tingin ko nagbago nanaman isip mo pero oks lang naiintindihan ko wag ka magworry….” with smiley face emoticon. I was expecting him to be mad pero he was still nice (or at least pretending to be nice) despite the fact na halos pinaasa at mukhang pinaglalaruan ko sya all night.
“I’m sorry. Hindi kasi ako sanay sa ganito tbh. I’m torn talaga but this good girl inside of me wins. Sorry talaga….” was all i could say.
“At Least na pa dalawang isip kita. Major accomplishment na yun!….” reply nya.
“Haha. Well yeah, you almost…………basta..basta” sabi ko.
“Almost na…? makantot kita….?” reply nya. There’s that bastos word again na hindi ko alam bakit malakas ang effect sa akin.
Since chat lang naman, I replied “Yup…” atleast sakyan ko nalang ang trip nya.
“Anong yup? sabihin mo!” reply ni Dan na mejo namimilit. I keep replying “basta” and “basta yun na yun” at paulit ulit din sya sa pangungulit na sabihin ko ng buo yung gusto nya marinig… lalo na in tagalog daw.
“Lol. Okay fine. Muntik mo na ako makantot. There. Happy?” Pataray ko pa rin na reply kahit na i can feel myself getting turned on by our exchanges.
“No, sabihin mo name ko at wag yung napipilitan… sige na!” pangungulit pa nya.
I realize this is all I can do for him despite na halos roller coaster ko syang pinapaasa all night. I can imagine him jacking off sa kanila for every bastos word na manggagaling sa akin and I feel like I owe it to him kahit papaano. At least he can get some release through me and i get through with this new experience safely. Besides chat lang naman and just exchanging of words, it’s not happening for real naman and its safe so I decided to play along. If things go out of hand, I can just pretend na galit and never reply to him again.
“Dan, you lucky guy, muntik mo na ako makantot…” reply ko then I teasingly added na “In fact, iniimagine ko ngayon na kinakantot mo ako”
In my mind, I was only teasing him to help him get off. But deep inside, what I told him is kind of true. I am in my bed half naked, playing with myself and picturing him na he’s there next to me and of course fucking the hell out of me.
“Taena talaga? Shit malibog ka rin pala….” his words are turning me on sobra. “Nilalaro mo ba pussy mo habang iniimagine mong niyayari kita….” dagdag nya.
Honestly naiilang ako ng konti sa mga kalye words nya. Pero actually nagugulat din ako sa sarili ko na nakakaya ko yung mga sinasabi nya without being offended. Not a single guy dared to talk to me that way. Most of my suitors are pa alaga at pa sweet. They are asking how my day was, asking if I ate lunch, dinner, merienda etc, asking about my sleep. Some even write me a poem as part of an everyday greeting.
On the other hand, Dan is cursing at me and telling me na I’m malibog. Maybe I’m allowing him na maging bastos at maging vocal sya so siguro iniisip nya na gusto ko din yung mga sinasabi nya. Yes, naeenjoy ko pero now I think he’s intentionally being like that as a way to get through me. And no doubt he’s winning.
“Yup Dan you got me. You may not fuck me for real pero I swear to god na I’m here in my bed, playing with myself thinking of you and what could’ve happened…” sabi ko sa kanya. All of a sudden I was saying or typing those words na I never thought na I’m capable to express. Malakas loob ko kasi chat lang soI wasn’t holding myself back anymore.
“You have no idea how lucky you are… Not a single guy came close to get me do what I’m doing right now….” dagdag ko pa.
“Hehe talaga? Hindi ka nila napalibog? Sige lang J, labas mo lang libog mo sa akin. Gusto mo ba sabihin ko sayo ang plano kong gawin sana sayo dyan sa room mo kung natuloy tayo…?” reply nya.
He then started telling me in detail how much he’s gonna fuck me at every corner of my room. He’s very detailed and he’s not suppressing himself sa mga words na sinasabi nya. He’s not asking my permission if papayag ba ako to do this and that. Instead, He’s telling me what he wants and yun ang gusto nyang mangyari. Sabi nya he won’t be gentle and nice and that he will give me a fucking that a girl like me deserves… whatever that means. He’s gonna treat me daw like a slut, a personal pokpok, his bitch.
Is he for real? What he just said is degrading and downright slavery. But that night I’m not in the right mind anymore to think what is right and wrong. I’m still not crying foul to any of the things he just said. In fact, I was picturing in my head every word he’s telling me. I wasn’t even responding to him anymore at puro mga bastos na messages nalang nya ang lumalabas. My eyes are locked-in sa phone screen ko and absorbing every dirty kalye words coming from him while I pleasure myself closing into a monumental orgasm.
“Ano J gusto mo totohanin ko yan? Kantutin kita ng parang pokpok? Tell me! Pokpok ba kita?” that was Dan’s last message. I know na it’sjust words in chat lang… but, I was so high in libog to the point na my brain was fully fucked up.
I don’t even care what he looks like anymore or that he’s just a stranger that I just met him 2 days ago. Wala na akong pakialam if this guy really deserves me or isipin ko pa who I was and what I stand for before this conversation…. I just don’t want this to end. So with myself full of libog, I replied back “Let’s do it for real. Pokpok mo na ako and I don’t care. Just fuck me for real…”
Then suddenly a video call notification is popping into my screen and he’s trying to call me. I was lying in bed, wearing a white Sando top with a black bikini type underwear down below. My legs are spread a little while I’m playing my very wet puss.
I answered the call and hold my phone on top of me enough to show my face and chest/tummy area. My left arm was fully stretched holding my phone while my right hand was playing with my clit. I was biting my lower lip, trying to look seductive and to tease him some more.
I was expecting he was close na din that’s why he called. But to my surprise, he’s not jacking off at all. Instead, he’s just seating on a very well lit room with white earphones on his ear. Muntik na ako matauhan ulit when i saw him. No offense but physically he’s really not my type talaga.
He put his earphone mic close to his mouth and said “Ulitin mo yung sinabi mo…. Gusto ko sabihin mo sa akin ng direcho…” Demand nya. Typing those nasty words on chat is one thing. Granted na it’s only a video call, but this is face to face and he wanted me to say those things na never ko pa nasabi kahit kanino. Not even with Christian.
But he got me so good to the point na I’m surrendering myself to him. Ewan. I am basically throwing all my inhibitions go and letting him know na nakuha na nya ako..
“Sige…Let’s do it for real…” I said na mejo nahihiya but I smiled and bit my lip again.
“Ano kita? Sabihin mo sa akin….” He insists in a very serious tone.
“Pokpok mo…” I answered with a lower voice
“Pokpok nino…?” Tanong nya without any change in his reactions.
“Oh my god, gusto mo pa talaga sabihin ko….” I was smiling at him when I said that.
“Sige na, pokpok ka nino?” He’s serious pa rin kahit na I’m trying to lighten him up a bit.
“Alright… Pokpok mo na ako Dan. I don’t care anymore pero pokpok mo na ako. Yan ba gusto mong marinig?…” I told him while trying to be seductive. I was touching myself when I said that.
He smiled and he added “talaga? So paano pag taglibog ako, magpapakantot ka sa akin?”
I’m closing into my orgasm at wala na sa katinuan. I couldn’t believe the next few words coming out of my mouth “Magpapakantot ako sayo Dan…”
He insisted pa na “Managako ka nga na magpapakantot ka sa akin!….”
Sobrang lutang na utak ko. I put my right hand up with my wet fingers sa cam in a swearing position “I swear to God Dan, magpapakantot ako sayo…” I said with my voice sounded na kuhang kuha na nya ako.
I never thought na aabot ako sa point na ganito. Na sasabihin ko yun sa guy na halos dalawang araw ko palang nakikilala. So unreal. Even typing this and recalling back what happened, I still couldn’t figure it out why I was acting like a sex depraved slut. Bakit ako pumapayag? Ang dami kong options. Bakit sa kanya pa?
Then tumayo sya and he started walking. He’s holding the phone down so I can only see the floor, his legs, and pants habang naglalakad. I got so confused on what’s happening so I asked him “saan ka?” and then he stopped, tinutok nya phone sa face nya and said “Kanina pa ako nakatambay sa lift lobby ng floor mo…. Nakisabay lang ako sa ibang guests para makaakyat”.
“Kung totoo yang sinasabi mo. Open mo yung door. Tama na arte. Totohanin na natin….” dagdag pa nya.
I ended the call agad.I went to the door just wearing my sando and underwear. I dimmed the lights a little bit then sinilip ko sya sa keyhole. His ugly distorted face appears. I took a deep breath with words “Oh my God…” screaming inside my fucked up brain and then I heard him knocked again.
I opened the door not knowing what about to happen will change my life forever…
Chapter VI
I was hiding behind the door when I gently opened it. Hindi ko na sya sinilip pero I’m hinting na pwede na sya pumasok sa loob ng room.
Our eyes met agad as he enters the room. He left the door slightly open while hawak pa rin ng right hand nya yung door knob sa labas kahit nakapasok na sya sa loob. I was behind the door naman holding the doorknob from the inside with my left hand.
Nakatitig lang kami sa isat isa at parehas kaming naghihintay kung sino unang magsasalita. He was standing there staring at my eyes pababa sa katawan ko and you can tell from his smug face na tuwang tuwa sya nung nakita nya na naka underwear lang ako.
I was about to say something to break the ice, when all of a sudden, he pulled me from my back with his left hand and straight away forcing his lips in to mine. I kissed him back gently yet willingly and I thought we are heading straight to the bed na so I was trying to close the door pero pinipigilan nya and he was pulling me even more so that I’m visible from the hallway.
Bumitaw ako sa kissing namin and tinitigan ko sya ng masungit and mouthed the word “NO” sa gusto nyang mangyari. Most guys would probably stop after that pero not Dan. He kissed me pa lalo and opened the door even wider for everyone to see. My room is in the middle of a long hallway naman but still, if anyone passes by there’s no way na hindi kami makikita.
It’s been a while since the last time I kissed a guy. Halos nakalimutan ko na nga yung feeling ng may kahalikan and that was way before with Christian pa. I remember he was a gentle kisser. Dahan dahan and ramdam mo yung respect nya sayo.
On the other hand, Dan is an aggressive kisser. The moment he laid his lips on me, he’s using his tongue na agad. Normally I wouldn’t like that pero I was really caught in the moment so hinyaan ko lang sya. I closed my eyes and gave myself fully in. There’s no sign of gentleness sa ginagawa nya. I slipped my tongue in there and oh boy, nilalaplap nya tongue ko. Our tongue began to dance as we both kissed each other torridly.
Bumigay na talaga ako while completely forgetting na we were making out na nakaopen yung door while almost naked down below. I was so incredibly horny and Dan was turning me on so much, inangat ko yung right hand ko close sa likod ng neck nya and i grabbed his hair pulling his face into mine.
Suddenly we heard people coming from the lift lobby heading towards our hallway. I was trying to close the door again pero ayaw nya. I was trying to pull away din pero pinipigilan nya ako. I manage to gather my strength and broke our kiss. I pulled away agad and napasandal ako sa wall behind the door while Dan was smiling nakatingin sya sa mga tao na dumadaan sa hallway.
I tried pushing the door to close again but before I could even react, Dan pinned me against the wall kung saan ako napasandal and I felt my pussy flare in excitement lalo na when his left hand held my face… helping me keep our lips locked as we kissed loudly. Hawak pa rin ng right hand nya yung door na naka open. My breathing deepened and my face began to heat as my body began reacting sa thrill na ginagawa namin.
he was all over my mouth again. Just like that, I’m completely submitting myself again. He was licking my whole lips down to my chin and then to my neck and ear. Wala na…. diliryo na ako. He pushed my legs to open up a bit and he started rubbing my pussy outside of my very soaked panties.
I was in heaven. My hips are moving along the rhythm of his fingers. He started to slip in his fingers inside my panties and started to play with pussy and napahawak ako sa kanya ng madiin. This is it.
I was very close na kanina pa while magkachat palang kami and when he slipped his rough fingers and play with my pussy, I lost it. Game over. I’m in pure lust and ecstasy. He broke our kiss and pinapanood nya lang reaction ko. He started inserting his finger and kahit na i was pushing his arm away… it was useless.
I was never a fan of inserting fingers sa pussy ko. Not even when I pleasure myself. I remember Christian tried to do it before pero kasi first time nya din gawin yun sa girl so when he tried it sa akin, I was in ridiculous pain after and feeling ko nagsugat sya sa loob. Since then I never allowed him to finger me anymore kahit pa sa actual foreplay namin. I have no problem getting off naman just by massaging or licking my clit.
But it was already too late to stop Dan. In one swift motion, he managed to insert his middle finger in me effortlessly. I felt a little pain pero not as painful like naramdaman ko before. The next thing I know his fingers are in and out of my pussy…building to my closing climax
I was close. Really close. My face shows I’m in agony pero fuck sarap na sarap ako. Pabaling baling na ulo ko. This is it. Suddenly I felt a change of movement ng hand nya and he’s gearing up to enter two fingers. “Teka, wait!” yun nalang nasabi ko and then naramdaman ko nalang yung 2 fingers nya filling up my pussy.
All of this is happening while the door was still half open. Sobrang lutang na ng isip ko, I don’t even care anymore if may dumaan or may makakita. I closed my eyes while lulot na lukot yung face ko trying to concentrate sa sarap na nararamdaman ko.
“Titigan mo ako!” Utos nya. “Wag ka pipikit. Titigan mo ako!!!”
I opened my eyes like he wanted to. I looked at him with my mouth open and breathing heavily
“Kaninong puke to J? Sagutin mo ako. Kaninong puke to….” Tanong nya tapos lalo nya binilisan pag finger nya sa akin
“Sayo Dan…sayong sayo lang puke ko” I said and meant every word of it. It was his, kanyang kanya na talaga.
My eyes are glowing with ecstasy and lust with every inch and every powerful thrust ng fingers nya sa pussy ko. Dan finger fucked me as hard and as fast as he could closer and closer to an epic orgasm that was approaching very soon. My eyes instantly shot wide and my mouth hung open as I began making pigil na pigil na high-pitched moans of utter ecstasy. Dan glanced over his shoulder a moment to see if anyone had walked in yet per wala pa.
My body began to tingle all over then yung pussy ko parang may electricity surging through sa kada labas pasok ng fingers nya deep inside of me, filling and stretching me completely. My world began to spin and colors began flashing in my eyes as I felt a huge…a fucking enormous orgasm about to tear through me.
“Wag mo pigilin. Ilabas mo libog mo J. I own you tangina ka!” Bulong nya. I moaned as loud as I could until my body suddenly exploded. Wala na akong pakialam if may makarinig sa labas. I was back arching as I screamed for pleasure.
A few days ago I was in my normal old self. I was excited and hopeful. My confidence is at my all time high as I have guys courting me left and right. I felt like a princess to have so many guys attention around me yet I have to turn them down. Feeling ko kasi the best is yet to come and besides I’m leaving pinas na rin soon.
Now I’m at the mercy of a guy who I just met 2 days ago. A guy na physically can’t compete to the guys courting me back home. Forget the fact na he’s one of my ex’s friends, he’s literally holding my world at the palm of his hands and he wanted everyone to know that kaya he kept the door open for everyone to hear.
I forgot all about that; all I could think about was that fingers sliding in and out and how wonderful it was making me feel. I came and came and came. I could not seem to catch my breath as my whole body shook in front of him. He smugly watches me cum habang nangingisay and yung pussy ko naka locked sa mga fingers nya.
Hinugot nya fingers nya bigla and my knees buckles down. Nag collapse ako bigla sa floor as if those rugged fingers of his are the only thing holding me up. My eyes are closed at nanginginig pa din katawan ko as I catch my breath trying to recover.
While slouching insude the room hallway, Dan finally closed the door. Yumuko sya and hinawi nya yung buhok ko using the the same fingers na ginamit nya sa pussy ko at sinabi nya “Nagsisimula palang tayo. Partida nasa pinto palang tayo nyan…”
He then kissed me gently in my forehead with a sick smile on his face and walked straight inside my room.