by: stellargirl
Chapter VII
As my mind starts to bring me back to reality, I thought about what I had just done. Suddenly guilt rushed over me. Feeling ko I’m going crazy kasi half ng mind ko sarap na sarap sa nangyari and the other half was yelling at me for loving it.
I was still sitting on the floor facing the room. I lay my head next to the wall on my right while I close my eyes trying to concentrate and think of any reason to stop this from happening pero wala talaga. Wala na akong kawala. This is really happening and there’s no way out of it anymore.
“Alam mo ba katabi lang ng hotel mo yung condo nila Christian?..” I heard him asked. I opened my eyes a gently as I saw him looking outside of the window.
I know naman na malapit lang sa hotel ko yung unit nila Christian but I wasn’t aware na overlooking lang pala yung building nya from my room. Besides, I’ve been to their place naman na the other day when he invited me for dinner pero as if naman maoorient ko ang sarili ko sa mga confusing road, entrance, and all similar looking condo units nila.
“Hindi ko alam kung saan eksakto unit nila Christian dyan pero alam ko na block nila yan…” dagdag pa nya.
“Yah…alam ko.. malapit lang sila..” i said while my eyes are groggy and struggling to speak.
Narinig ko nalang na pinupush nya yung curtains side by side para walang sagabal yung view ng window. Then umupo sya sa bed sabay kalikot ng phone nya.
I got up gingerly while trying to find my bearing and then I walked slowly towards the room. Mejo nandidiri ako sa wetness dripping along my legs and I’m desperate to clean myself up pero all glass ang toilet ng room ko so there’s no other way to do that discreetly. Sya naman ang nasa bed so alangan naman na nandun din ako. I can’t go anywhere. There’s no place to hide. Wala akong mapuntahan.
I decided na sumilip nalang sa window and check out the view. I couldn’t help but wonder kung nasaan nga talaga exactly yung unit nila Christian. I was standing there next to the sofa bed staring outside this huge window, just wearing my top and my very soaked panties. Since naka dim naman yung lights, I know hindi naman ako nakikita from the outside.
As I was looking at the view, I felt like crying. However, at the same time, I didn’t. My mind was telling me to just go back to bed and magtago sa sheets or go outside, somewhere far away and cry, cry for being so stupid… cry for being end up in this fucked up situation… cry because matino naman akong babae. Sinasabi ko nalang sa sarili ko na I should, but I just couldn’t. My body is not reacting sa mga paliwanag ng utak ko.
All of a sudden, naramdaman ko nalang na nasa likod ko na pala si Dan. He put his left hand sa waist ko then the other hand hawak nya yung phone at may pinapakita sya.
It was their group chats ng mga tropa nya and most of them are cheering him on. Dan hasn’t written any replies to them since he shared a photo of us nung nasa gimikan (Clark Quay) palang kami kaya tuloy some of them are already assuming na semplang sya sa akin. Pinagtatawanan nila si Dan. Some are still hopeful and kept asking for an update kung ano na ang nangyayari. Just guys being guys. But Christian’s replies are the one caught my attention the most;
“Malabo yan. Mataas Standards nya e. kilala ko syota nyan dati haha pero goodluck sayo….” hirit ni Christian.
He’s still denying the truth about our past relationship. Grabeh… I don’t really know what he’s trying to achieve by denying about me pero one thing is for sure, my fuckin insecurities are building up more and more. Shit sya, I am way more attractive than Nat. Him denying me as his ex is beyond me. Sya pa talaga may karapatang magdeny. We dated for almost 4 years and he was head over heels in-love with me…. And I’m pretty sure na he still cares for me kahit pa hanggang ngayon. What is wrong with him?
Dan was obviously enjoying my reaction and continues to stir the pot pa lalo “Ayaw nya aminin na magsyota kayo dati haha…. ” Ngumiti lang ako sa hirit nya pero obvious na asar na asar ako.
“Baka ayaw nya lang ng magkaroon ng awkwardness with Nat…,” I said trying to defend Christian and make myself feel better na din.
Nakaharap pa rin ako sa window while nasa likod ko naman sya. He threw his phone sa sofa bed and both hands nya hinawakan waist ko saka nya sinabing “Baka naman hindi ka nya minahal…”
My ego was hurt by that statement so i decided to put myself forward and let him know how one sided my relationship with Christian is. I told him how much he loved me and how he treated me like a princess when we were together. I boasted na pinaghintay ko sya ng almost 3 years before ako pumayag na makipag “chancing” and sex. I even shared that incident when he tried to slyly touch my boob and how I broke up with him afterward. He was patient and nirespeto nya ako inside and out. He supported my principles and my stand against pre-marital sex. I was going on and on… kept talking and talking and defending myself… until I felt Dan’s fingers slowly moving up just below the base of my boobs.
“Lagpas 3 years sya nag hinintay para mahawakan nya to?…” He asked while his hands remain in the same position pero his point finger was slowly circling around my nipple area.
That shutted me up. I immediately felt electricity running in my body. Not because he’s playing around with my sensitive nipples, I mean of course it helps, but he acknowledge the fact na im allowing him to touch me kaagad and yet Christian waited for years before I allowed him to.
He continued circling around my nipple area and I can feel my nipples are getting hard and poking outside my sando top. Hes barely touching my nipples, paikot ikot lang yung fingers nya around it. I am still recovering from my first huge climax pero here we go again, nalilibugan nanaman ako.
Without my control, I leaned back to his left shoulder and hinayaan ko lang sya sa ginagawa nya. He started kissing my neck and my right ear and suddenly he lifted my sando and exposing my bare boobs right in front of the window for anyone to see.
His fingers are still circling around my nipple and it’s driving me crazy. His right hand suddenly bumaba papunta again sa panty ko but this time instead of touching my pussy from the outside, he went straight away slipped his fingers inside my panties and worked on my clit. All of this is happening while he’s licking my ears and his left hand circling around my rock hard nipples. Wala na, I was lost on my own lust na agad. I was so out of it with pleasure that when Dan asked me a degrading question, nakadagdag pa sya lalo sa libog ko.
“3 years ka nya hinintay pero dalawang araw palang tayo magkakilala e nagpapaka pokpok ka na sa akin?” Bulong nya na may payabang na tono
He’s right. I have no excuse sa nangyayari sa akin. All my principles that I fought my whole life….. gone! Wala na. This is not what I envisioned na mangyayari sa pagpunta ko sa Singapore. I expected to be out and traveling, spending time with Christian palagi. I was open to any possibilities of maybe… just maybe there’s that spark again that eventually may lead us to get back together. Since this is the first time na magkakasama ulit kami, there’s that familiarity and sense of comfort with each other na baka marealize namin na para kami sa isa’t isa. I have no expectations naman but I’m a hopeless romantic. But nope hindi yun ang nangyari. Ibang guy ang kasama ko and to make matters worse… voluntarily nagpapaka pokpok ako sa kanya.
“Swerte ka lang sa timing mo…” Sagot ko sa kanya while still trying to make a point na on any given night, he wouldn’t have a chance to score a chick like me.
“Ganon? Well..Malibog ka lang talaga… Nasa loob yang kulo mo. Deep inside pakantot kang puta ka…” He said ng may angas while his mouth on my ear and he started inserting his fingers again sa pussy ko.
“Unang kita ko palang sayo libog na libog nako. Akala ko nga imposible dahil wala sa aura mo na malandi ka…” Tuloy tuloy sya pagsasalita nya ng bastos.
“Pero malibog ka pala talaga tangina… Walang nakakaalam na malibog ka… Kahit si Christian walang kamalay malay ngayon na kuhang kuha na kita tangina nya…” dagdag pa nya.
In an instant parang nararamdaman ko agad na malapit na ako. His filthy mouth added to this sick pleasure and all of a sudden I was consumed with libog. I know myself and I know na I’m not that kind of girl na sinasabi nya pero my body seems like having a mind on its own, contradicting what my actual mind was thinking at kusa na lang gumigiling yung hips ko sa mga fingers nya.
Nanginginig nanaman katawan ko and my mind is going crazy. I turned my head to my right and leaned over to kiss him and he did so this time tongue to tongue kami agad. My climax is building up again and again.
My hips moved, pinupush ko na yung sarili ko sa fingers nya, I did not want him to stop. I was getting there fast… real fast na parang nararmdaman ko yung pussy ko na nag cocontract at pati ass ko nag fle-flex. I moaned as I went over the top to a feeling like never before. I just came lang earlier at the mercy of his fingers, pero heto nanaman ako nearing my orgasm again. Only this time it is way more intense.
I was humping against his fingers as I moaned and closing in again for another climax… when all of a sudden, umilaw yung phone ni Dan na nasa sofa bed and Christian’s name appeared on the screen. He was calling Dan out of the blue. My heart jumps as I looked at Dan and he was giving me the same confused face.