ni Luntian
You know when after a sex eb, one just vanishes?
Yung tatanungin mo sa sarili mo.. puta, akala ko we had a great time. Akala ko we had a connection, akala ko everything went well, akala ko interested kami sa isat isa talaga. Pero matatanga ka kasi ni ha ni ho wala after ng thank you and goodnight? That was my game in the previous years kaya I know when it’s happening with me. Ive been once called a bubble, dahil bigla bigla na lang raw nawawala (thats another beauty of using a dummy account, you deactivate it then poof! Its like you never existed!), by someone who really liked me but I didnt feel the compatibility that he asserts. After a meeting I would always think about Whats gonna be next? Or Should there be a next? Im a thinker, a little over, but I believe I could mask it almost perfectly that it would look like I dont even care. Im a paradox.
I was enervated from the last past 5 days including the Sunday that we first met that I got sick the following Wednesday. I was home alone and thinking to myself, Uhh, ano? walang paramdam? If he isnt onto chatting, maybe if I call him, if he heard my voice.. it could amount to something Eh kaso may ubot sipon, boses bakla ako sa phone! Pero sige try.. wala naman mawawala sayo, di ka naman niya pa kilala talaga, at walang mangyayari lalo kung hindi mo susubukan. Eh offline nini!! Okay try getting the phone number, eh meron! Nakalink ang phone number sa messenger!
I dont really like phone calls, even at work, if I could settle things with texts, I do. Boses 7 years old kasi ako kapag walang karamdaman.
Eh nagring!
Eh tapos sinagot!
Hey kya. ehe NOOO, di naman ako ganon kapabebe.. Hiiii! Taas ng pitch te? ang lande?
Ako : Hello? You know whos this?
Ariel : Uh uh (he was stuttering a little) uh, yea I sorta figured out.
Ako : How are you? Im just at home, may sakit kasi ako, so for the dormancy that I have I was to call you sa messenger kaya lang baka the signal in Batangas is not good. (O putangina anong ineexplain mo!!)
I could sense from the other line that hes not actually available to talk, it seems like hes walking around and/or stacking papers.
Ako : Is it not a good time to talk? Busy ka?
Ariel : No no, actually Im just on my break, but very short lang, like 15minutes.
Okaaay.. He answered a strangers call on a 15minute break. Sige tama na nga, nakakaabala pa ako.
Come friday morning he sent a message.
How are you feeling?
Im better today, nakapahinga ako hanggang kahapon pero huhu sinisipon pa ako.
Im going back to Pasig today. Lets have lunch sa bahay ko? Ill pick you up in a truck.
O ano, mag aaya naman pala ulit, atat ka lang te.
Tanginaaa, pangarap ko kasi magkaroon ng pick up! Ive told him my truck story of how I was to get one but got a sedan instead. Ang angas kasi ng truck, its so masculine and capable! (Youll love to ride!) So my eyes turned into hearts the moment I read it!
He was in a blue and white horizontally striped polo shirt, khaki pants and white laced up shoes. Im a sucker for people who wear white shoes, because its bold and prominent. I myself love my whites, when its sneaky clean it says a lot about how well kept you are as a person, crisp at ang lakas makamayaman! If its a little ragged (but not dirty to the top), its dependable and its so good it has taken you to good places! Also he was wearing shades, he was walking towards me para bumeso, very in charge! Parang siyang si Pepito don sa pinanunuod ni Maricel Soriano na telenovela sa movie na Kung Ayaw Mo, Huwag Mo! Yun! Very composed!
Then he opened the car door for me to ride, then went on the other side. This is not the first time na makasakay ako ng pick up pero Im just really elated every time. Kaya lang I was trying to keep calm kasi mukha siyang pagod, init at inip dahil raw sa traffic.
When he invited me for lunch, I knew were gonna have sex, malamang naman nini, pero tanghali.. ang liwanag! I dont do it in broad daylight.. Or if I do, the room should be dark, but I havent assessed his room and its lighting, and theres no way Im asking. Im sort of a strictly lights-off woman. But given the situation, I had to compromise.
Without lights, theres sensory deprivation, cutting off one sense can help enhance the others, so when you make it impossible to see anything, you boost your remaining senses. Im a very sensual person, I like feeling every sensation during sex, things can feel so much more stimulating in the dark! Plus, it’s great if you haven’t quite conquered body concerns. Im not totally comfortable with how my body looks during sex, its like there’s a spotlight highlighting my flaws with lights. Being so preoccupied with the negative makes it almost impossible to enjoy the positive, namely the mind-bending orgasms. But this guy is very body positive, Ive mentioned before how I was caught off guard of his compliment (with regards to my body) so Im pretty sure well be just fine and Ill overcome (which I did) any shame or inhibitions I might feel.
After lunch we went up to his room, ang liwanag nga.. ang laki ng bintana tapos nakablinds!
I was in a black keyhole crop trop, high waisted maong pants paired with grey rubber shoes. We took of our shoes and then went to bed, nagyosi muna kami then I had to warn him about how I could be flu contagious. He then kid about std, eh sorry kuya pero huli ka na, kung meron nahawa ka na, lokong to!
Okay, eto na.. game na. Edi naglalaplapan na kami sa kama, kaso eto nanaman tayo sa wardrobe ko, malaki ang balakang ko so my pants usually are tailored to fit, even if its just maong I have to calmly take it off, tapos choker type yung top ko na may zipper sa likod, so sa hubaran hindi ko kaya ng mabilisan magisa, kung siya naman mag aalis may onting painstructions si tita. Punyeta, maling mali.
We stood beside the bed to undress. Then we kissed standing, Im starting to be very concious about how I look, and the room being bright makes my eyes and head wander, Im quite an observer tapos tangina minsan kasi ang attention span ko pang 1year old, I get easily distracted by visual stimulus. Haaaayayayay! Pumayag ka pa kasi ng lunch time!
Anywaaaay okay, focus ni!! After almost a minute of lip locking we separated to gasp air. or so I thought, as he pushed me to the bed, it felt like I was thrown, landing on my back, my reflexes were actuated, I was surprised, startled! (Tangina, gusto ko mapanuod ng slow mo yung nangyari, bakit nanunulak!!)
In NDD (2) I mentioned how I felt like he was a lion in bed, now I see it. There’s nothing that rouses a sense of awe quite like the proud stance and flowing mane (he has medium hair length for a man) of a lion! I lay in his bed like meat awaiting to be devoured, Im with the presence of the King of the Beasts!
He went on top of me rubbing his cock against my soaking wet pussy, he slides his member inside me with the pelvis slightly tilted that the head of the penis is running itself to the sides of my insides. I was embracing his buttocks with my legs as he thrusts, my hands having free access of his back. His face radiating of lust, his eyes fired up with the love making, hed lick me in the face and kiss alternately. Okaay, remember I mentioned sinisipon ako? He had one swift lick that came across the holes of my nose, tanginaaaaa.. huwaaaaaag. Im losing my focus on the sex because I was thinking of my runny nose. But to my sight it didnt bother him at all, or could be it wasnt running at the time, which I hope kasi tanginaaaa ang alat non. Hahahahahahahaha
We just had one cigarette and a little cuddly time and then precede to round 2, tangina, power! I went on top of him this time as I dont wanna be labelled as lazy, and besides I havent tried being on top with lights, so I insisted, I had to try. This position is in my top 3 best of all time. The bottom of his penis perfectly aligns with my clitoris, our bodies are bound up, they are sensitive and interrelated, and every movement revoices in my body. I tried tilting my pelvis the way he did it, it accentuates the angle of entry, increases the friction and thereby pleasure. He wrapped his arms around me allowing us to meld together. He was doing hair pulls and guiding my thrusts thru his arms across my shoulder. Hes a man of jurisdiction, even when on his back hes a key roleplayer. Little did I know that because Im being more active and that Im head down, all the more that my nose would be runny, so putangina! I was hesitant on kissing dahil tumutulo yung sipon ko! As we were kissing Id catch him watching me as I gasp for air, and I wouldnt want to give him that vision. So I had to pick up the pace once I felt that I was cumming!
Tapos nung yari na, eto nanaman, nag aaya nanaman mag shower! Hindi talaga ako dugyot promise, pero kasi, tapos naman na, uwian na, ayaw ko na makishower kasi the bathroom wasnt inside his room, the more floor area I cover the more exposed that I feel. And! My hair, you know it already! (NDD 3)
It was a quick afternoon sex, we wrapped it up with this scene.. he was naked laying diagonally on the bed, his head rested on my leg, I was covered in his flat sheet and comforter, we were smoking a cig or two just by his window, now blinds opened, cliche if Id mention there were birds chirping as the wind blows to the south.