ni Luntian
He told me he was leaving for Australia for 30 days. Ang sad, tangina bakit ganon.
Just a background on why I feel this way, maybe you’ll say, ‘Puta naman 30 days lang, ang clingy mo.’
So since January I’ve just seen 3 guys. And I only see one guy at a time. Ang hypocrite sounding ba? (Impossible ang landi mo kaya you’ll probably say) Pero kahit kasi ganito akong liberated, that I do sex with strangers.. that I write erotic literature..
First, there’s still this probinsyana in me, na hindi naman ako sobrang pakarat, medyo pakarat lang. Kaya nga ako nagtatago sa isang dummy account, kasi hindi ako openly malandi out there in the universe.
Second, it’s a mean to be safe, the less people you let inside you, the less chances you get at having a disease. (But not so less that you don’t enjoy life, okay? Masaya ka na sa not so less ko?)
Third, so to not spoil the probable budding relationship.. parang pagkain, huwag mong gamitan ng iba’t ibang kutsarang nasubo na para hindi mapanis agad.
I hook up to date, I date for exclusivity and then to marry. That’s how we do it in this generation. BUT from what I have learned no, from the moment it starts to actually ‘BUD’, one will ghost the other. Kasi ganyan ang tao ngayon, yung rationale na ‘Tangina I was just here for the sex, out for the nonsense useless relationship and shit’. So.. unless you know it is mutual, you don’t expose your feelings. Pero how will you know when dba? Eh you’re love making for fucks sake.
That’s the game, you’re playing.. but will you be winning?
First this year was a seaman, he just got back from Brazil, we spent a month together and then I found out he has a girlfriend in Zamboanga so I had to leave the place he got for us (which I believe he paid for 3 months consumption) and then eventually he had to leave for Africa.
Ang ayaw ko sa lahat yung nakisawsaw, because even with this hook up culture that’s going on right now, I’m still a lady who respects relationships. No matter how good the sex is, IF you’re seeing someone REGULARLY (More than twice and going or monthly, whatever your definition of regular is) other than me, just take me out of the picture, I don’t deserve it.
Okay, I’ve mentioned how I can be convenient, I can tailor fit my schedule, I don’t have hang ups, I respect your privacy. (I’d like to add na hindi ako clingy but.. okay erase that, kasi makwento ako eh, and god, who doesn’t like attention.) I have a car and I have a place, AND if it’s not available I might even offer to pay a room, or even better a guy could accompany me on trips, hindi nga lang paid leave to ha, pero bakasyon!
So.. if you’re not satisfied with that, maybe we’re not meant to venture into a sexual relationship. Dont get me wrong though, hindi naman sa love o jowaan agad as I’ve said in NDD1 BUT I’ve entered the late 20s already.. there has to be a journey of some sort with whatever I’m getting into, yung chance na may kapuntahan, yung may thrill of ‘what happens next’, hindi yung isa kang side chic, extra, reserve.. ano, gulong lang?? I’m done with one night stands, I’m done with insensible, unfaithful guys, I’m done with boys, sex always come easy but I’m not out here for it alone anymore.
Another is a SAF officer, in Nuvali for studies, I literally lived there for 2 weeks until he had to go back to Cagayan De Oro where he is based. Eh yung mag asawa ngang magkasama na sa iisang bahay nakakapagkantutan pa sa iba, ano pa yung ang layo dba.
And saklap no, lahat sila umaalis at iniiwan ako. 🙁 Ang gusto ko lang naman gabi gabing sex with someone emotionally and physically available and able! Mahirap ba yon!!
So when I got the news that he is to leave I was skeptical, is he telling me this because he’s bailing out on me or what, kasi no we’ve just seen each other twice, and in the next 30 days or so a follow up would be impossible, maiisip mo, after 30 days meron pa bang excitement diyan? Pagbalik niya gusto ka pa ba niyang makita? Or pagbalik niya maaalala ka pa ba niya? Hindi naman sa nagmamadali, pero igets niyo na lang yung sinasabi ko. Hahahaha Ang Pasig, I mean, sa Pilipinas nga napakaraming babae, tapos Australia pa, edi ano, wala na, di ka na kilala non pagbalik nini.
He is polite, I think he’s the guy who’d rather not say no but could really mean no. That’s something that one must fear, because if a bachelor is like that he’d be available for everyone else, though including you.. BUT/AND/WITH “EVERYONE ELSE”.
I asked if we could meet the next weekend after our little afternoon delight. And guess what? We’re having NDD (5) so yes! We did met up before he left. *little happy dance*
It was a 2-day weekend that I freed for him, I even manipulated my brother who’s on vacation at my place to leave and go on a trip with his friends. I have a way with people and making them do what I want. Hahahaha
I planned my weekend around just lounging, sleeping, Netflix, and of course SEX!
I was in a large purple college shirt, and zebra printed shorts as I was binge watching Riverdale. He came knocking at my door around 5 in the afternoon, he was wearing a light green polo shirt paired with light pink pants.
We went on my bed, and this time I don’t have wardrobe issues as I was just in a shirt and shorts, HAH finally sex na agad! He was swift removing my shirt and his, I was on my back when he tried to pull me up to kiss. He was kneeling and I was guided to sit on him, which I couldn’t get quite right because.. I don’t know.. I have short legs? Or that I don’t want to put my weight on him to sit as he was kneeling on the bed. (I’ve seen this not executed thrice and I haven’t discussed with him, I’ll try to remember to ask next time!) So.. I just went back to laying on my back. He pulled down my bottoms and positioned himself between my legs.
This is the third week after I first met up with him and my usually bald vagina is now with a little hair, but it does taste its best around this time. I’ve been in bed with women too, and I prefer vaginas bald, so as much as possible I maintain it that way. When I do it, I have this sort of ritual of just going around it first before focusing on that supple, growing, throbbing clit and it would roughly be longer than the pelvic humping.. when lesbians or bisexuals do it, it almost always takes the same pleasant course (with one person) because we take our time, and we know our way around it, that’s something about women, consistency. But when men do it, every cunnilingus experience is different, it all depends on how much they wanna be inside you, so.. the more he’s excited the less oral you’ll get. *This is based on my personal experience, we can agree to disagree.*
He opened, no, stretched my pussy lips and exposed the clit, then sucked and bit it lightly, then poked the vaginal opening with a finger, the finger going around on the inside.
(One tip : do not try to finger fuck-pushing in and out, while giving head) Just press around on the inside or just around the opening and below the clit, it makes so much more difference. (If this doesn’t work for your girl don’t tell her you read it here. Hahahaha. Just ask her what she likes!)
I started feeling hornier.. parang akong kinagat ng lamok tapos gusto kong kamutin! Kamutin hanggang humapdi, kamutin mo pa! I pushed his head towards me as I lightly tilt my hip up, I was trying to hold my orgasm but that thought made me even nearer to climax, in no time my legs were shaking, and those leg spasms lead him to go up to my face so I could lick off all that pussy juice on his chin, in and around the mouth! As I do all that he lodged his rock hard cock inside me.
I had to hold my legs down as the shaking won’t stop.. but my hands are doing it too so I just settled with putting my legs and arms around him as he thrusts with rage, nauuntog pa ko sa dingding sa pagbayo! He slipped his hands under my head, and then intensely pulled my hair, he’d also lick around my face which didn’t shock me anymore this time.
As my orgasm stops I pushed him to the side so I could go on top. I didn’t need to give out much force as he let me.
Once he was on his back, I took his cock, and sucked it. As much as possible I try not to use hands when giving head, but since he is lengthy I need help! Once I’ve licked out all that pussy juice from his cock, I sat on him and began straddling while he rubs my clit.
He pulled me to kiss, this is what you gotta love about the basic missionary position, with the man/woman on top, it allows a lot of intimacy. And the hugging and caressing opens dimensions of pleasure. The full body contact also stimulate the body’s largest sexual organ-the skin. I’d stop thrusting every time I orgasm and would pull up a little because I’m worried it would strengthen and lead to hurting him with my vaginal uncontrolled presses.
As I’ve been draining with power, we reversed positions again. I just told myself, ‘Okay kanya na nga to’. He was on top of me, our foreheads pressed together, we’re doing bites and small beak kisses, nakakapagod magmarathon ha! And as the thrusting intensifies, nararamdaman kong lalabasan na rin ako, TAPOS PUTANGINA HINUGOT.
HINUGOT
HI-NU-GOT!!!!!
Ayy Sus!!!! Ano, puta, ano yaaaaaan!!!
Punyeta where’s the trust..
Tangina naman. Ano ba!!
He later told me that the change in attitude was because of this girl he was hooking up with in the recent time just told him she could be pregnant. Man, he was still in touch with someone he hooked up with, does she fall under ‘regular’? Because if yes, that’s a red flag. Though he did tell me he was lukewarm with the girl, pero I’ll think about that later.
So to that girl, PUTANGINA MO, YOU OWE ME.
Una sa lahat, pwede ba kasi kayong mga babae bago kayo makipagsibakan PWEDE BA, PLEASE LANG, mag isip muna kayo, alamin niyo kasi katawan niyo, tangina pabira ka ng pabira tapos ako mapepeste!
Pangalawa, tangina kung hindi ka sigurado kung SAFE ka mag condom KAYO o kaya better yet PUTANGINA HUWAG KANG PAPOKPOK NA PAKANGKANG.
Pangatlo, PUTANGINA MO ULIT, YOU OWE ME.
Anywaaay, we did it a couple more times and he did redeem himself, sooo.. okay, sige bawi naman, pero tangina hindi ko na isusulat yon dahil putangina ni girl!!! Kagigil ka nini!
This is the first time he saw my place, I toured him into my little abode.. and when he saw my bike he told me that he will bring his and then we would bike together. Ariel, isa kang PAASA. Also, this is around the time when I wrote NDD1, which I bragged about as it was getting hits, and then he wittingly states, “We should do it more so that you have content.” PA-A-SA. Syempre kinilig naman ako! Sinundan pa ng “God I’m gonna miss you.”
Teresa.. TERESA! Makinig ka saken, makinig ka! HUWAG KANG ASADO. Gising!
I offered to send him home, he refused several times..
I felt deceived when he pulled out, and I don’t want to feel cheap as I will be left in my condo after a 3 to 4-hour sex session.. ano kuya, puta ba? Just leave the money at the table ganon? Ha???
And that feeling will be what I’ll be left with in the next 30 days, or forever if he doesn’t come through when he goes back. That’s why I insisted on driving him home. By the time he has to go down the car, I’m not sure if he did tell me again that he is gonna miss me or if I did tell him that I will (Dami ko naaalala pero this one is a blur because I just dont want to separate ways pa), but he did told me that he will get me pasalubong.. Ariel, all I want is you to go back to me and a Koala.
Sisingilin ko ba in 30 days?