What Should I Do? Stay Or Change?

by Reynaaaaa

Hi, I actually don’t know how and where to start pero aaminin ko na lang iyong mahahalaga. Some says I am an open minded person, pero iyong iba, sabi masyado raw akong inosente sa paningin nila. Parehong tama. I am knowledgeable when it comes to sex and shit pero never ko pang na try iyon, iyong hawakan ang boobs or masturbate, or like some will touch me ganun, virgin pa
ako.

Petite kasi ako tapos iyong hitsura ko daw eh, dalagang koreana yeah. May lahi kasi akong Chinese. Tho, this is awkward pero yeah I am still a minor. I am 17 years old pero grabe na libog ko. It’s really awkward to write this tapos aminin mo na bata ka pa pero malibog na. Guts bes. Pero I also wanted to share para malaman niyo ‘to. (I will also share some of my experience why I became this horny type of teen) soon…

Btw, brief lang ‘to (pero if you wanted to know more details just comment hahah)So, noon since summer at boring, i tried to download apps to talk to someone. Iyong friends lang, makakausap ganun. Iba ibang apps, sometimes pag humahantong sa personal, iuninstall ko na since boring na iton, kung ganun, sometimes boring narin iyong kachat. I got bored with those apps pero iyong isang app is pretty cool kasi hindi boring iyong mga nakakausap ko, hanggang sa humantong sa usapang sex, I got nervous and hesitant at first pero idk sinapian ata ako tapos naisip ko, what if I try chatting them? Na challenge ako. I am also horny na. Then I decided to do it. Iyon nga, i became a slave, baby girl, submissive. Before I have a fetish of calling them daddy and being called baby girl. Idk gusto ko iyong babu girl then parang slave ako. Hehehe. Gusto ko iyong hard! And deep. (I am wet shit)

Iyong dirty talks. Grabe mas nawewet ako noon kaysa nanonood ng porn o nagbabasa ng mga stories. Tho. I never allow them to call kasi im from the ph tapos mga taga ibang bansa sila so no use din pero it was fun and hot hahahah pero it has to end kasi baka malaman nila mama so I uninstalled it. Ngayon, hanggang sa pagbabasa nalang ako .
Some says na they are going to pay me for school or credit card but I refused . May pera kami and gosh I dont want to let my parents know. Lol.

Gusto ko iyong kakainin ako, like shit i am wet just by imaging someone is in between my legs (trust me I am good with dirty talks just please no photos cuz never in my life that i wanted to see a penis hahahaha. Nope! Not interested) pero idk if i am going to go back sa ganun. I am contented na sa pagbabasa pero namiss ko iyon. Lol ang gulo.

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Gusto ko nang mag boyfriend pero wala eh. Wala akong tipo. Like, iba kasi iyong gusto ko. Iyong mature so he can kiss me (pero di iyong sex, only in my dreams hahaha kasi takot ako. Well, kung mag kakabf ng matured, ill think about kissing, touching and rubbing pero no entering hahah) may mga nanliligaw pero di ko silang feel eh. I also dont want to get hurt char pero tbh gusto kong magkaroon ng bf pero at the same time ayaw rin. (Standards rin) (Curious kasi ako pero ayaw talaga ni self) more on dreamland nalang ako hahahahaha.

Mga fantasy ko? Magkabf nang matured na guy, like he will kiss me, touch me but no entering tho hahahahah. Pero i wanted to do a lot of things with my boyfriend (rubbing our sex gosh it makes ugh) pero i di ko pa feel magka jowa . May nanliligaw pero di ko sila feel, idk maybe because i wanted to experience a lot of things Basta. Ayoko ring malaman nila na ito nga ako. Mukha kasi talaga akong inosente . Di kasi ako mahilig na ipapakita iyong katawan ko sa iba, i I dont feel comfortable showing much of my skin, iyong short shorts and sleeveless, nope! (tho. I love wearing shorts but never short shorts cuz jeans is suffocating me, dress pwede pa or skirt, pero minsan lang ako mag jeans, pormahan lang ganun) mej awkward rin na ipakita iyong pempem ko (like photos sa chat) pero sa tuwing nag babasa ako ng mga sex stories, grabe, wet na ako agad. Libog!

Fact is i never tried fingering or inserting my fingers inside me kasi masakit, baka mawala V ko then feeling ko uncomfortable lang bastaaa. Kahit sobrang libog na ako tapos sobrang hot na ng story na gusto ko nang magpakantot. Di rin. Nag attempt akong magsarili pero ayaw rin. Masakit daw eh). Though sometimes if i am washing my vagina i rub my clit (of course washing nga kasi parang normal lang pero I feel diff. Baka iyan na iyong feeling na nag mamasturbate? Idk. Pero napapaihi ako tuwing ginagawa ko iyon. Idk )

I tried to stop. Sabi ko nga na hindi na ako manonood ng porn (curiosity ko noon, pero ngayon hanggang basa nalang, actually mas nakakalibog iyong nagbabasa idk hahaha, pero i tried to stop myself pero iyong pagbabasa, di ko napigilan. Hanggang ngayon, iyong parin.

Sabi ni mama, sa age ko nagsisismula nang maging mahilig iyong hormones and shit. I disagree at first pero totoo pala, kasi ang libog ko pala.

there. Ayon lang. what can you suggest to me hahaha. Like, should i stop and start anew or just try those stuff again?